What is it you want? You can have it. It will mean you need to change some things. It might not be as hard as you think.
My mission is to heal people of their emotional wounds. Just as hurt people hurt people I know that healed people heal people. Here are some steps you can take to start the healing in your family.
You can learn a lot from animals. My hound dog Ellie taught me how to ask for the things I want. I invite you to upgrade your asking.